Ch.204 One Year Anniversary of Pat’s Death
July 1, 2023
I thought I’d wait to get home from the cemetery today before writing, but this morning I
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Ch.202 Mother’s Day Memories
May 2023
I didn’t expect to awaken tearfully on Mother’s Day. After all, Pat and I hadn’t made big deals out of Mother’s
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Ch.200 An Unpleasant Surprise: I May Have Cancer
May 3, 2023
I’ve been concerned about having increased memory and other cognitive problems, so I scheduled an appointment
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Ch.198 Don’t Leave a Mess Behind
May 2023
I have been cleaning, sorting, keeping, and throwing things since Pat was transferred to assisted living. I began with
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Ch.199 First Airplane Trip After Pat’s Death
May 22, 2023
I’m flying tomorrow from Minneapolis to Toronto to spend a week with my brothers Art and Don,
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Ch.197 “Get Me Through December.”
April 2023
Alison Krause is a blue grass singer with a beautiful soprano voice. This afternoon I listened to several of her
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Ch.196 Watching Pat’s Memory Choir Brings Sadness and Joy
April 2023
This morning I attended the final rehearsal for the evening’s Springtime
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Ch.195 Reminiscences: “Tripping” with Pat
April 2023
Searching for some Lewy Body books, I happened across three journals I kept between 1997 and 2015 in which I
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Ch.192 I Have a Pretty Good Life
March 2023
I awakened yesterday, said good morning to Pat as usual, and began contemplating the day. Morning: drinking tea and
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Ch.189 Things Fall Apart.
February 2023
“Things fall apart. The center cannot hold.” This famous phrase, the beginning of a poem written by William Butler Yeats, perfectly
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Ch.188 I Can No Longer Keep Lakota Safe.
February 2023
My horse is named Lakota. He’s a “quarter horse,” a type bred to run exactly one-quarter mile
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This week I have altered my usual format. I've asked my friend Richard Fuhrer to share a poem he wrote recently as he wrestled with whether this was the time
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Ch.186 A Joyful Musical Memory
January 2023
Last night I watched a PBS special show about the singer and pianist Roberta Flack. Her breakthrough song was entitled
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Ch.185 Spreading Out My Need for Affirmation
After Pat died, I took up a new hobby: colored pencil drawing. That was somewhat of a stretch, given
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